Roller Coaster

Its so hard to be in a relationship atleast a relationship where there are many disagreements. smh IMO upbringing has a lot to do with it coming from different families can say a lot. that ties into religion, social class and all other major aspects of life. if time and time again things dont work out between you and your mate it just maybe time to let it go who knows? what hurts the most is letting go. the fear of not knowing what the outcome may be is terrifying and not having stability can be devestating and detrimental to any relationship. forgiveness is said to make someone feel better as if a burden has been lifted. so when someone throws a situation in your face is that because they really didnt forgive you? when do you draw the line with your mate? is there even a line to be drawn? im at a loss for words so with that im out sorry for the poor welcoming back obviously this is about me and i have no further comment because i am an optimist

When I Get Mad I _________________ because.....

      
When I get mad I throw things belonging to the person who caused me anger and try to make their life a living hell until they apologize because they made me mad.
SMH and for some reason I can't stop myself. I have ended up breaking things that actually belonged to me in the process LOL but anyways I know that its unsafe and childish but it actually helps me cope with the situation oddly enough. Well my bf calls it a temper tantrum and swears somethings not right upstairs and I wouldn't argue with him about it. (OBVIOUSLY!!) I'm sure I'm not the only one to do this, not as to say that everyone does but hey whatever floats your boat. Signing off,

Simply Tonica : )

The Recession

                


Any of these pics mean anything to you? The first one reminds me of hard times and I first recall seeing that photo in one of my text books. The second is but a photo to show how we ourselves are sometimes trapped and feeling alone as if we only have ourselves in some lights thats the truth....mind you i did say in some lights. Going through these times my most used phrase is that which doesn't kill me can only make me stronger, something to live by. This is a modern day survival of the fittest where only the strong will survive. There are people out there who prosper because thats what they've chosen for themselves. Remember Bill Gates brought out Microsoft in the middle of a recession. That's a juicy bone to chew on but anyways people are going to suffer and the way that the world is so modernized we have somewhat of a power to change our circumstances. There are some who choose to further their education and some who dont! Both IMO could be considered hustlers or gamblers so to speak. Because you're taking a risk of getting that degree and not finding a job or not doing anything and going into the work force. Now I'll stick up for the ones who choose not to further their education becuase I am one of them and it was my choice. Going to school and hearing about how teachers are still paying loans and nurses in debt not being able to really spending time with their family because of working long hours etc. If you find a good company to tag on to they train you. I know someone right now making $43,000 a yr only a highschool diploma and that's not bad at all sure you could have more than that but hey I wouldn't complain because I know I'm a lazy person as of right now atleast. People know you have to pay the cost to be the boss. Now the grads well it all depends on the profession and how they go about it afterwards......honestly i can't really speak on that persay because I personally didn't go through it. But I will say this is all my opinion. And this all cam about because of this recession that we never really came out of. Signing off

Simply tonica : )

Give Them Their Flowers While They Can Smell Them

This past weekend I tagged along with my mother and younger siblings to go down south to visit my aunt. First of all let me tell you that from Connecticut to South Carolina is a butt wrenching ride. lol ; P but it was for a good cause her birthday was on the Friday that we arrived and we wanted to see her. Well especially myself because I hadn't seen her since July of 2009 for a brief period. Everyone kept saying how she took a turn for the worse and I began to think that things really started going downhill because they released her from the hospital under Hospice. That IMO is no joke. When i got down there I had already prepaed myself for the worse. Not at all. She was coherant, she was alert, she was just bed ridden and that was because she recently broke her foot and she's being cathaterized (if I spelled that correctly). The point of this blog was not to talk about my aunt but to say that you should always appreciate what you have while you have it. Air go give them their flowers while they can see/smell them. Pay my respects thats ridiculous that you can not see a family member face to face w/o a legitimate excuse but I know now that this has to stop. I am a firm believer in God and that He is a waymaker , therefore my aunt will soon be healed in Jesus' name. And that's all i have to say about that. Signing out

Simply tonica :)

New Year Means Christmas Is Over

After all of the hustle and bustle of Christmas I'm sure everyone is relieved. Yes I can honestly say that Christmas has been commercialized but I look at it not only as the birth of Jesus Christ but as another opportunity to give and show appreciation. It doesn't help that this is one of the most manic times of the year.
Quick question have you ever heard of and atheist that celebrates Christmas? hmmm neither have I. I won't get into that yet though. This year my boyfriend told me that I shouldn't really expect much and by that he meant, if JC only was blessed enough to have 3 gifts then I should get no more. Best believe I was SMH real hard. The nerve coming from someone who goes to Church only when its at gun point j/k. But if you can't already tell he is quite the comedian. IMO Christmas is filled with joy, suprises, remembrance, and good times. I'm glad that it is over just because the stress can cease and we can save money start a new year and continue to dwell on how blessed we all are. Ending on a good note I'm signing off .

                                                                                                                                Simply Tonica :)